September 6 2018
Dearest mother
As I cross my threshold in this existence
Into womanhood
Into dignity
Into pride
Into paving my way rather than unwraveling it
This time of vast innumerable initiations provided me a glimpse into what’s to come
Into all that being a woman and a mother is
Being accountable for the weight of the world on your shoulders
Being justified in your whispers from the universe
From the source which we all come and go
From god and god’s arms, I felt them all along as you adorned me with your love
Through you, I’ve experienced the highest order of unconditional love on this planet.
I believe that wholeheartedly
I am only able to touch people
Because of how you touched me
I am only able to open my heart
Because of how you showed me the way
I am only able to feel the truth
Because of how you laid the path
I am only able to pray and release
Because you instilled a deep relationship to death in our lives
I am only able to live as fully as I do
Because of the tireless effortful insurmountable hours you’ve worked to make it be so
I am only able to be free
Because of how thick your chains are
I see this
And it makes me wonder
About the evolution of our species
If we can only grow into what we receive
So we can expand and express it
And we must begin before which we came
Perhaps we put ourselves in this maze
So that once we tasted freedom again
It would be so immaculately delicious
That we would fall to our knees
Yelling glory to all things
Screaming blessed be Mother Earth
And father sky
And we rise to our feet uniting these two entities
In a whole encompassing bond of love
In every relationship
There are the two
And then there is the third that emerges
The love by which bonds the separate beings
This love
This trinity
This is who you and I are and will always be
Our love beyond the limits of who we were even meant to be
It is the most holy unbreakable vow
I love you more deeply than I even know how
To express or to write
I love you on the inside
I love you as I love me
