October 10 2018

Actively receiving

Slowly receding

Apprehensively succeeding

In abundantly redeeming

All that the suppression and regression

Was hiding and subsiding

A suicidal denial of feeling this vast experience’s whims and whiles

I’m beguiled by the expressive nature

That was once just a glimmer or a tapered whisper

At something or a reality that I knew in my bones

That was screaming to be known

To be acknowledged and seen

To be held in the in betweeens

To show itself in the greater scenes

To be battled with and then surrendered to,

To ask love what it would do

To meet each sordid display

And instead reorder it to a heart full expansion and play

To dance with the shadowy aspects and subtle white lies

That society asks us to live as our lives

Well I rip and I tear these untruths from my vessel

And clear the way for my essence to unwravel

To reveal itself in all shades and forms

To not question or fully absorb

Just to allow whatever life hands

In each blessed moment

To glide through my body as it opens and expands

To embody the changing oceans of life

Never standing still for a second at a time

Constantly moving, motioning, whirling and swirling

To be alive to the waters of my body that ignite within me the power of each moment

Of each wave and each calm pristine day

Of the beauty within every scene at play

Finding the gift rather than the curse

I rehearse stepping into my life

Taking full responsibility and hoping to meet it with delight

And a lightness of seeing what I’ve created

And how I can expose and recompose when desired or perhaps requested

Falling out of love with me

And rather allowing love to flow through me

Watching as pieces of me fall away

As gracefully as leaves as they slip away from their branches leaving a vivid display

All the while leaving the tree in tact in a way

Reconnecting to my roots to the trunk that holds me

To my strengths, I hold true

While standing upon my vulnerable sensitive hues

Pleading more loving tones to hold my breathing rattling bones

Centering more and more each day

Collecting myself

And facing fully each day

Walking with pride

Giggling with glee

Standing fully in dignity

Rooted in gratitude

Mind filled with prayer

Dreaming a new day

And bowing to the present

Awake to the gift unfolding in each and every second