November 2017
Be abandoned
Abandonment
Leaves a hole
That feels it can never be filled
No amount of anything you put in
Will ever amount to what was taken from
The time spent
Just passing
Waiting for love I thought was coming
Bounding towards me with a dozen roses
From someone seemingly out
Side
On the other side
Two sided
waging the pieces against one another
Not a war per se
Just two defended lines
The heart, hurt too early to see its strength
Closed it’s doors and hid itself away
The masculine turned away
The heart hidden, the goods broken, the gems covered
Found no reason to stay
He wandered he roamed he found plenty of homes
Except for the one who he cast away
With his words or his ways
Or his deafening phrases
She was never to be found again
Until one day he cried forgiveness on all sides
He admitted defeat to the heart
Knowing this was the place to start
To return to her graces
To her warm embraces
He began his trek back to her core
Over hills over mountains
Through rivers and valleys
The deserts almost scorched his sordid trials
All he desires
Is to give up his ways
To hide the pathways taken once before
To move forward with her hand in his like the times of glory
Make glittering gold pathways of loving compassion
Of union of gliding through time
She's prayed every day
He’d return to her that day
Every day she’d prepare to meet a man
Little did she know he played within her own show
And until she could meet the one she waited for within
She would only rehearse the same narrative she knows.
The man would abandon
Throw fire to the wind
Start to reign in the blow,
Little did she know…
He would never cease to be present
To pick up the phone
To answer when called
To be by her side at all costs
But it’s never enough just him being by her side
What she craved was a thousand years of unknown
Of being told she didn’t know
Of being cast into the shadow
Of believing she was powerless and meak
And weak
Instead of the warrior that lies dormant in her bones
This schizophrenic composition of friends and foes
They all plainly know, her desires are simple though
She just wants to love all the days through
Feel her heart and her breath
Feel her purpose and her depth
Be in the mystery but know the direction
Feel the truth pour from her mouth in every direction.
To whip with the winds and whisper to her siblings
The way of the heart lives on
Together they celebrate as each beat rings stronger
And then you trust
And life hands you another rose
To continue on
To bloom
To blossom
To create another petal
To meet life halfway
To co create
To meld in whats given
To what's done
To model humanity
To serve evolution
To leap into unknown waters
To weave together
All that was once broken
To see that it never really was.
