September 2017
This begins
Because I no longer refuse technology
I simply don’t cling to its chains
I command the drivers seat
So to we may move together, rather than against each other
I hold gratitude for your compliance
I salute your assistance
I praise your rescues
I honor your healing methods
But I will not let you control me
I will not let you fool me
For there is something much greater than your internet
The web
The net that is cast through me, that is of me
This is the net for which I allow act through me
Wire my every bone
Every pore
Every cell
Alive
With the net
As well as the river
Rather than the flood of light alone
Healing comes from within
Not simply without
Not simply from above
But also below
From the anchor laid deep below our feet
Beyond sight
Mind
Through spirit
And the will
To heal
New waters spring forth
And heal from within
No doctor needed
No surgery cut me open
For my stitches lay themselves within
As golden threads
Stitching my soul back to its body
Its spirit
Its life
Moment by moment
Rewriting, reweaving, we sew the tale
Of the golden tail
Of the life line no one could see
But she knew was behind her
A unicorns horn,
simply flies to the skies
But her golden tail
Keeps her here
While her reality melds into all as she walks
This golden thread linking her to wherever she’s positioned
Yet allows her scene to melt away
Her imagination to flood the field
She sees her past
She meets her future
She knows what she’s doing in the present
She knows her purpose
Life fills with it
Opens her heart
Each fragment more beautiful than the last
She finally sees what everyone else always did
She falls in love with herself
Slowly
With time
And layers
Unfolding
One by one
Streaking,
She walks forward
Naked.
Unapologetically learning to love herself
Loving herself
Incrementally yet insurmountably
Her love grows
It
Blossoms
With each breath
With each moment
Even if it
Appears
Not so,
This golden thread
Knows the way home
All the while
Waiting for her to feel her love
The breathing, beating, bounding, bountiful
Fluttering heart
That she is gifted with
She lets it free from its cage
She rips off her own bars
She doesn’t wait for a man
Though many have shown her the way
She was too stubborn
Taurus, earth girl she was,
Scorpio rising in her blood,
To let someone show her the way to her own magic.
The rebel needed to prove she could do it
Her impulsive nature would run from those who tried to find it
She evaded their touch
She shuddered when they got close
She closed in fear that they would hurt her
She never allowed herself
To open
Even though she thought she had a million times
And a million times she had
She was always waiting for the moment
Her heart could speak
When her words wouldn't be silenced
By her own inability to speak them
She was always afraid of the pain
So would take on the inner wars
The sordid soils
To defend her folk
They didn't know better, it wasn't their fault she would say
So she kept closed
Allowed them to enter
But kept her secrets hidden
Kept her truth unknown
Unbeknownst to herself and those around
She always knew something desire couldn’t name
Longed to pour from her arms
Out of her legs
Beyond her mind
Something
Not of this world
Or uniquely and acutely
Of it
It
Life
She knew she carried it
Love
She knew she felt it
Tears
She knew she shed them
Sadness
She knew she felt it
Death
She knew she created it
Shadow
She knew she cast it
Spells
She knew she spoke them
Sweat
She knew she bled them
Pain
She knew she experienced it
Joy
She knew she was of it
Essence
She elated at the sense of it
Spirit
She melted away as she encounters it
She
Is everyone
She is asleep
In each of us
She
Is the goddess
Of love
Of loving
Of all
But she doesn’t
She can’t
She won’t
Live alone
For alone she’ll never be
Alive with the future
Inside
She must love until she is enough
And trust that only then
Is when the dawn will rise
Is when the new day begins
Is when whether or not she’s ‘ready'
Life takes her over
And the sun rises once again
The dawn waits for no man
No woman
It comes each and every day
The gift is to catch it as it’s rising
As the dawn flickers across the sky
Leaving a line of light
To let us know he’s coming
She’s never alone
She’s never been alone
He simply melts away the night once his time has come
Once she's loved enough
Once there’s been wells of faith
Once there’s been streams of trust
once there’s been caves of truth
Once theres been echoes of what’s heard
Once there are libraries of what’s been learned
Once there are memories of what’s been seen
Once there are frequencies of heights only dreamt in
Once there is access to all her realms
This is when he sees her
This is when he kisses her alive with his light
When they meet, for they have been navigating for so long
The maps will melt away
To the records under way
And all will be a golden way
A golden play (a silver menagerie)
An invisible visible strand of connection appears
Guiding each day
Unfolding as magic appears
May the pain disappear
So I don’t inflict any more upon the land
Unchain me from the hooks
That hurt me over and over again
For their cycles are as damning as they feel
And in order to evade the pain and the shame for repeating lessons over and over again
I've numbed them away
So allow me to feel the roots
So they may shift from mechanical shoots
To the net they are meant to be casting
No more bullets, or holes,
Sink them with loving holds
So nothing may seep through the seams
It seems she may commune
Communicate
Commiserate
Commemorate
Conserve
Connect
Coincide
Cohabitate
Cooperate
With all living beings
By listening with her heart
Which continues
East and west
As well as north and south
And above and below
And in front and behind
And to the side
And underneath and beyond what can be seen
To be ALIVE in the mastery
Of the mystery
Of the history
And of the herstory
And of their story
Of our story
Of the we story
We weave
It all together
And see from the eagle’s eye
As it graces the condor’s nest
The eggs of what’s to come
The shells of what’s passed
The true
Story
Of all that’s come to pass
The grain of sand
Turned to dust
Hardened
To diamonds
To crystals
To elements
To ether
To space
To gravity
This becomes our text book
These become our lessons
Karmic currency courses
As we walk
As one
Towards
Home
Somewhere over the rainbow
Deep inside
It resides.
And so it is.
Gracias, aho, aha, aw, wow, ahaw, ompa, thank you