July 7 2018

What happens in the in between

When nothing changed yet everything’s different

On the precipice of the next leap into the unknown

Yet still rooted in the known

Knowing there’s life to come

Yet living all the while

What’s it worth to live for the life to come

Why can’t i access the fullness that beckons at my tongue

That my lips cannot get enough of

That my stomach will never stop craving

That my mouth will never cease from watering for

That dangerously and provocatively tintilate my being in all the right places and even the wrong ones

What will happen when I cross the edge

When I no longer long

When I cease to desire

When my body doesn’t quake with excitement or release

But when a still bliss settles all its qualms and quandaries

When it no longer wanders for it is basking in wonder

Playing slowly at a soulful melodic symphony that strums effervescently

While moving the entire motion, as the after sun kissed sky fades to dark

The body grows curious

What will the night hold

And again begin the tickles

And the murmurs of what’s to come

The chest heats and the imagination runs

When I think of the potential ways I get honored, revered, simply loved

All the times I was disappointed by night’s magic kisses flood in, thus I dream of ending up alone

Knowing the real loneliness lives inside

A hunger that I can’t hide

Who would love such a treacherous feast

Come, it Beckons you to take a seat

Sit my child tell me your sorrows and your wounds. Why do you believe you could offer such bad food?

Because my body essentially won’t run, it has knots that tie itself seemingly all the way to Vietnam

Perhaps these knots are keeping you on Track, helping you wait for a wholeness no one can unfold but one that’s glimmering behind the veil of folded cracks

But how do I get to this sacred land and live here while there for the rest of the days to come? Can I live both here and there? Both in your arms, in my own, and share?

Of course my child, just you wait, the power coming to you will blow you away

Just do as you’re told, be kind it’ll have a reward. Slow down and smell the roses, your light is coming with 10000 horses